Phone calls and all…

Everyone seems to be having recurrences at the moment. Seriously, it’s everywhere! My heart goes out to everyone who has been having bad news. As if 2020 needed to be more of a shit show…

I’ve had increasing pain in my face, and over the past month I’ve been losing the sight in my right eye. Very weird. My eye has started looking upwards, and now there are big black spots that take up big chunks of my vision. Like… that’s a worry, right?

And is that a lump in my right cheekbone? I can’t remember if it always felt like that.

Is my face feeling weird because I’ve had an infection for the past few months? Or is it cancer?

So I got a call from the Admin person from my surgical team. They’ve got the results of my scans, you see.
‘So for your clinic appointment tomorrow…’
‘My what?’ I replied, confused.
‘Oh, I thought you already knew. You’ve got to have a clinic appointment before we get you in for your biopsy under anaesthetic.’
‘My what?’
‘Oh, has no one spoken to you? The registrar made it sound like they’d spoken to you’
‘No. They haven’t. Wait, are you telling me I’ve got cancer again? What is even getting biopsied?’
‘Wait, let me have a look if there are notes. No, nothing. Can you come in tomorrow?’
‘Yes…’
‘Ok great. We’ll see you in clinic at 10:30.’

I wonder which part of me is getting cut into to confirm if the cancer is back or not?

The appointment is with my surgical team so I presume it’s my face…

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  1. I’m so sorry. I hate those phone calls where you are playing catch up. Makes me crazy. Love and hugs to you. ❤️

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    1. Jen Eve says:

      It’s sad that it’s such a reality isn’t it!!! Thank you 💜💜💜
      Much love xx

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      1. And to you!! ❤️

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  2. Crochet Ali says:

    My fingers are crossed for you Jen. I hear the same on my Head & Neck Cancer Facebook page. A lot of recurrences at the moment. At least you can get to the crux of the matter now. So sorry that you had one of those phone calls. I hate them! Ali x

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  3. Kirsty Hopgood says:

    Good luck in the appointment Jen, and I hope the biopsy runs smoothly xxx

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  4. loversjump1 says:

    It’s hard to believe what I’m reading here, Jen. Since when did that level of communication become acceptable?

    We are thinking of you .

    xx

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  5. Sorry that you had such a worrying and incomplete phone call. You have a lot of people rooting for you. I hope you don’t feel alone. I still remember fondly our chat in the patient lounge. You are a really kind person who is other focused. Really hoping this latest worry is dealt with and dispatched quickly one way or the other.

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    1. Jen Eve says:

      I very fondly remember our chat too! So nice to know you’re still following along. I hope you’re doing ok.

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