Gratitude and music

All of your messages, your comments… I can’t even begin to say how much I appreciate them. Every single one. I’ll hopefully get around to replying to them all, but just… Thank you to everyone who took the time to reach out. I can’t tell you just how spectacular it feels after having to break…

And for my next trick…

I wonder what would have happened if my first thought on that day I got diagnosed 5 years ago, wasn’t to immediately start a blog and write about it? Is that one of those sliding doors moments? Probably not, because I’m sure the thought would have occurred to me eventually, even if I hadn’t gone…

We’ve got five years, what a surprise

Today I became a statistic. A pretty important one. It’s been exactly five years since I followed the dental nurse to a room high above London at Guy’s and St Thomas’ hospital, and waited for the dental specialist to tell me the words I wasn’t expecting to hear:‘You have cancer’. On that day, 7/08/2017, I…

Scans n weird stuff

So I had a bit of a weird moment last week. Since this pain and exhaustion etc. started, I was in contact with my new wonderful pain team and also my nurse who is my contact to my Oncologist and well, everything at my hospital. So I emailed my nurse in pain on Monday two…

Love.

So I missed a call from my pain-team-of-dreams this morning. Poor things were probably like oh no what’s happened to Jen.Jen on the other hand was still fast asleep after having a late night out catching up with an old friend and drinking wine. I swapped out a night of Oxycodone for Prosecco and red…

Hot town, summer in the city

So my bestie Katie turned up on the Sunday morning. I opened my door and she was standing there on the other side. Katie. In person. On my doorstep. We hugged each other, tears in our eyes. When we finally broke apart, we grabbed each other’s arm weirdly and both said ‘it’s you’.Yeah, not much…

Couldn’t escape it forever, apparently…

Well I always said I’d try anything once. So I thought I’d see what all the fuss about Covid is. I think I was just about the last person I know around these parts who hadn’t had it. I thought I was the only person who had it but it turns out there’s another wave…

Well hi there. Miss me?

It’s been so nice to have some time off from going into the Cancer Centre, I’ve needed it. I was burned out living there off and on for 5 months. I could put cancer to the background for a while (other than the constant reminders, obviously) and enjoy my time with my parents. It was…

Well that was… Something…

I recently bought a ‘one line a day’ diary. A few friends had mentioned them and I love the idea of writing a small amount each day and then being able to look back on it. But the only length they make is five years. I looked around for maybe a three year one, which…

Should we take your PICC Line out?

They asked me on my final chemo if I wanted to part with the hardware in my arm. I decided that I should probably keep it a bit longer, just in case I ended up in hospital. Then maybe since I was meant to have an MRI in a month, I should leave it in…