Holding patterns…

The ‘packing change’ surgery knocked me around more than I thought it would. It is the smallest surgery I’ve had, but the ongoing effects of it seemed disproportionately large. Though as my dear friend India pointed out, my benchmark for surgeries is pretty high. So even if this one isn’t as big as others, that…

2 weeks (ish) post op

‘Do you trust me?’ is essentially what Mr. K said to me on that Friday back in November, before we went in to take this second cancer out.‘Yes.’‘Then I’m going to do whatever it takes to get it out.’ I remember agreeing wholeheartedly. I was scared it had come back, I just needed him to…

Antiseptic packing change done.

Well, it seems I made it through another one. I was so chilled, so relaxed when going into the surgery on the Monday morning. Until one of the anaesthetists decided to try his best to change that. First, he came in and said: ‘have you seen an anaesthetist yet?’‘No…’ I replied.‘Oh, well, I’m your anaesthetist…

Ahhh we’re all waiting for results really, aren’t we…?

I went back to the Cancer Centre on my birthday. It’s what had to be done. I wore my sparkly party dress. I hadn’t worn it before, who knew I was saving it for this moment. Mr K brought me in.‘It’s your birthday?’ He asked, ‘Let me get Deepti…!’He disappeared, leaving the nurse and me…

So… Phantom sight is a thing

For the first couple of days after surgery, I actively kept my eye closed. As in… it’s been sewn shut, so it couldn’t open anyway. But without even thinking, the muscles around my eye kept working as if they were holding it closed. It took a couple of days to realise i didn’t need to…

And eventually, reader… I escaped.

I was in hospital for 9 days in total. I got out on the Tuesday. My best friend (otherwise known as my surgeon) Deepti was finally back and she popped in briefly on the Sunday. But it wasn’t until Monday (my last night) that we had time for a proper catch up. It was an…

Trying to cope with only one eye…

What struck me is that all the time I was in hospital, no one asked how I was going with only one eye. That is, aside from my ward friends, of course. They were always checking in and happy to discuss anything and everything. C and I would go for walks of the corridor together,…

Drain #2

So we all know how traumatising my first drain experience was. For that reason, the Registrar said he wouldn’t do the other one that afternoon. I’ve been trying to work out how things fit in to the passing of time and it’s all over the place. I said that the first drain came out on…

Drain lyf

I appreciated my ward friends at the time, so much. But it’s only after that I realise just how much they helped me in that time. I woke up every day excited to see them, we went to sleep chatting, curtains around us but open just so we could see each other from our beds….