Playing Detective

So the MRI showed what I thought it would – there was no abscess or mass that needed to be drained, so we just stayed on the antibiotics. We changed to a third different type on Friday to see if it would work. My Haemoglobin and platelets were low, so a few transfusions were ordered…

The day dawns, the MRI looms, and Jen zooms

I just had to find a way to get through the MRI. That’s all there was to it. It had to happen. Look, I know I can do MRIs. I’ve proven time and time again that I can. It’s been quite a few since I last had a panicky one, and that’s because I’ve got…

What just happened……..?

A whirlwind comes into my bay and the curtains are pulled closed around us.In front of me stand three people.‘Do you remember me? Do you recognise me? Do you know who I am?’ Says the one who is clearly in charge. It takes me a long time to recognise anyone in hospital Even if they’re…

The top three suspects

There are any number of places I could have picked up an infection that landed me in hosptal, but these are my top few theories, in order of likelihood: I had it already. I’ve spent the last 4ish months trying to get my surgeons to take me seriously when I said I had an infection…

15 hours in A&E…

I’ll fill you in on the GP disaster soon but there is something else that takes priority for now. As you know, I’ve had to be checking my temperature every 2 hours to see if it goes up. There’s a chance I have no neutrophils due to my chemo depleting them, and they’re the lil…

Some quiet after the treatment and birthday storm…

Side effects to report… I’ve been very tachycardic (fast heart rate) Nausea and vomiting Weird nerve twinges in hands (a new type of neuropathy I’ve not had before) Exhaustion Can’t go more than a few steps without being completely out of breath My eyesight has been deteriorating too – I’ve known of it to happen…

It’s my party, and I’ll fly if I want to.

Get cape. Wear cape. Fly. Is it:a) The name of an Indie singer from Essex who I wouldn’t particularly recommend listening tob) An accurate representation of my birthdayc) all of the above. The answer is c. My amazing friend Sarah got me a CAPE custom made out of the most spectacular sparkly, sequinned material that…

Chemo Day 4

I still remember the first air bubble I ever had in a line going into me. I’ve seen the hollywood movies – if you want to kill someone, you stab them in the neck with an empty syringe. Air in your blood kills you, right? I panicked when I saw it creeping towards my body…

Chemo week 1

So I was in for 9am on Monday. I was dragging my heels a bit. I left my packing until late on Sunday. Then I stayed in the bath for an extra hour when I probably should have gone to bed in prep for my big week. Then instead of leaving on time on Monday…

Pre chemo adventures…

Again, I’ve packed my bag full of clothes for the week. Which clothes are the best to wear when having drugs connected to you for all ours of the day and night? It felt different this time. Four years ago there was a sort of excitement of curiosity for it all. Where would I go?…