Now that all of the excitement of Christmas is over and my parents are gone, it’s time to do some reflecting.
December was a big month. I turned 30, I had the worst few weeks of my life health wise (physical and mental health) when I was feeling so terrible and going through so much pain and stress, and on top of that Charlie has decided to leave me and move out.
I had no warning at all, no idea it was coming, so it’s been a total shock and not easy to deal with at first, but I am pushing on with purpose into the new year.
He is still being supportive when I need him for something and I am grateful that he got me through the worst bits, and definitely through the last of my injections. I will always be grateful for everything he has done, he was wonderful.
Having my parents around has been amazing and I am grateful to them for their support. It was good timing that they were here.
I thought it might be a lot more difficult from here, being on my own now, but then I realised I’m not on my own. I’m never on my own. I have such amazing friends to support me whenever I need them, and I am staunchly independent anyway so I’ll survive. And as I say, the worst of it and those bloody injections are gone!
Dad and I did a cover of Alanis Morissette’s ‘Hand in my pocket’ on Christmas day after hearing it playing at a café the day before. I’ll put a link to the video up here soon, but I have a new appreciation of that song now, I’m pretty sure it was written about me. Very poignant.
And all I can say is that everything’s gonna be fine fine fine.