Struggles and some gory details…

At this point I was waking up every morning not able to open my eyes, as well as being cold, wet and covered in blood. It was pretty grim. I couldn’t breathe through my nose or close my mouth. I had blood and yellow discharge streaming out of my nose, and blood and saliva running…

The second trip to the ward in 3 days…

When I was transferred to the ward for the second time in 3 days, I was back in a shared ward. Thankfully this time there was no one wailing all night like there had been the time before (I remember writing to my nurse saying ‘just give her sleeping tablets and give me sleeping tablets…

Last day in ICU

I had a very odd nurse that last day in ICU. She kept grabbing me by my painful cannula arm (like literally grabbing my cannulas) or grabbing me by my shoulder injury. At some point she managed to hit me in my swollen face and instead of just trying to apologise she tried to grab…

The second trip to the ICU…

Second time in ICU, I had my own room. That was quite nice. The first night, when I had just come out of anaesthetic, I was propped up really high in the middle of the room in this very uncomfortably set up bed, connected to a hell of a lot of monitoring devices I didn’t…

Taking stock of the damage post surgery #2

So when I woke up from surgery #2, it seemed like a good time to take stock of what had happened to me over the past week, physically. Let me relay it to you. So in the original surgery, they took the bone, some muscle and the blood supply out of my shoulder/back – the…

Woah hey look, she lives!

I can only apologise for my radio silence. I know none of you would blame me for a moment, but I’m sure you have all been concerned, intrigued, interested… Some combination of all of the above, maybe some other things too. I have not been up to writing at all, and I’m still not. But…

Last minute thoughts on this surgery

I’m not like… Worrying about this surgery. I mean… I know the risks. I know it’s huge. I know it could end up being even bigger than they expect. I know things could go wrong. But I’m not lying awake at night worrying. There’s no good in me worrying about it. It’s not like a…

Surgeon meeting take 2

So I met with the surgeon today. We’re aiming for surgery on the 5th of March. That’s soon. When will I find out if that’s going ahead? Hopefully Tuesday. 5 days before I would be going to hospital. Plenty of time for my parents to book tickets to come over, right? Found out I’ll be…

Reiki road test

Ok, as promised, it is time to report back on my experience with… REIKI!!! Reiki was basically exactly what I was expecting. But I promise I really did go with an open mind. I went in and was asked to lie down on the bed after a brief introduction. There was some lavender oil diffusing…

I wasn’t lying when I said the hard bit was yet to come

I had to go in today for photos so they could build some 3D models of my jaw for surgery. Super cool. The photo guy was really nice. Though he confirmed a few of my worries to be true. The surgery recovery will be huge. Really huge. It will be at least a year before…