Teeth thoughts and important (non cancer related) meetings…

People’s reaction to me wanting teeth is interesting. Most people are in the camp of ‘of course, it must be SO difficult without teeth’ but occasionally voicing my desperate wish for teeth gets brushed off with an ‘oh, that’s not an issue, teeth don’t really matter, you’ll get them when you get them’.

I’m not sure what the latter reaction is about. People who say it do mean well, and I know the main thing is that the cancer is gone but… Like… Would they think being without teeth is inconsequential if it were them? Eating is difficult, talking is difficult and I still look like there is something wrong with me… Is that something I should feel happy about and that it’s nothing? I know I’ve been through a lot and I am a lot better off now than I was a while ago but it doesn’t mean it’s all better and easy now…

Though people do like to believe I’m better. When I was having chemo I remember someone saying to me ‘oh so you’re getting better now!’ I looked blankly and said ‘well I’ll be getting a lot worse for a while… But yes, the idea is that I will eventually get better…’ Makes me feel for those who’s cancer/illness isn’t as black and white as ‘sick/better’.

But believe me, although I am waiting with bated breath for the day I have teeth, it’s not like I’m putting my life on hold until that day. I’m out doing things and meeting people, I never thought twice about that.

In fact I’m really starting to feel like me again (until I look in the mirror and see my face, but whatever).

This week we had a big meeting at work with a whole lot of our clients. A fairly daunting idea really in light of a year off from work, and not feeling up to full strength, and looking and sounding odd – thinking about meeting new people, catching up with old, having to remember details about things that have happened, presenting to a group of people who don’t have English as a first language…

But we have such fantastic clients. Catching up with the ones I knew was so lovely. They knew what I had been through, they even follow along with my blog (hi!). They were excited to see me and find out how I was going.

And the new ones were also so great and meeting them and chatting was no hassle. When I finished my presentation I even got a ‘Bravo!!!’ from the person I was sitting next to when I returned to my seat.

People are great. Aren’t people great? I really feel like I’ve achieved something this week! Also, it will be my first day of 4 days at work in a row!!! Yes, I will need Friday to sleep. But I’ve managed 4 days. And big days. I think I’ll try keep to this schedule for a few weeks and then see if I can step it up to 5 days.

On top of all this, my bestie turns up from Australia on Saturday. Haven’t seen her for over 3 years. If anyone is at Heathrow on Saturday and sees two hugging, crying girls… That’ll probably be us.

Watch out world, Jen is almost back, with or without teeth! (Though teeth soon, please, thanks)

5 thoughts on “Teeth thoughts and important (non cancer related) meetings…

  1. Roxanne

    Hi there: I know exactly how you feel about having teeth. I had my upper jaw removed due to having a rare form of osteosarcoma ( bone cancer) in my upper jaw. Actually it was discovered during a dental exam. My front tooth was throbbing. My dentist saved my life as he spotted the minute tumour in the cartilage in the roof of my mouth.
    Long story short my upper jaw from my front teeth to my back jaw was removed. The surgeon left two sets of molars and bone so that one day dentures could be made and hopefully be functional.
    I went for approximately a year without teeth. I lived on mashed food and smoothies.
    My speech was muffled and swallowing was difficult.
    After healing for several months the dental surgeon fashioned a prosthetic palette. No teeth but at least it was easier to speak.
    Our health care in Canada doesn’t recognize cancer in the jaw. They do not pay for what they dream as cosmetic teeth! My community held a benefit raising a portion of the money . We used that much needed cash to pay for my new prosthetic upper jaw/denture. It was a lot of money for me back then.
    The prosthetic helps hold up my nose up and enables me to talk, swallow,and breath. My sinus cavities are just open holes in the skin covered roof of my mouth.
    To look at me …one would never guess anything was amiss. My face looks average. This was many years ago. I have had two prosthetic dentures made in the last 27 years. Recently I had dental bone grafts done so that posts could be put in which made my dentures attach better . Again the cost was huge.
    In Canada it is all considered cosmetic. However a prosthetic leg , arm, finger are manufactured for life. Doesn’t seem fair.
    What will your dental surgeries and prosthetics cost you? I hope your system is better than mine. It’s been a struggle. But now I can smile!!!

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  2. Andrew Taylor

    You’re going so well, Jen.

    A busy but good week by the sounds of it. Fingers crossed for a clear MRI scan and progress towards getting those teeth in place. Wow, getting there 🙂

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  3. Jen Kibble

    HI Jen, when you get those teeth, Mike and I are going to treat you to the biggest steak, gosh hope you like steak 😯 go girl go 😉 xx

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