The longest night

By day the ward is a living, jovial, caring, nurturing, happy space. By night it turns into an unforgiving beast. By day the nurses are your compatriots, your friends. They sort things out for you, they bring pain relief, they bring smiles, laughs. By night they feel like overlords, snatching you unceremoniously from precious sleep…

Being back in hospital…

When I was at home over the last few days before coming in, with this ever swelling face, I was stressed about how I ‘should’ be, or the things I ‘should’ be doing. I’ve got an event to get to but I’m not feeling well enough. Am I going to be well enough to go…

Surgery part 2

I think we tend to build up our medical professionals as wizards, magicians, Gods. And in a way, they are. The work that they are doing is beyond belief, and I have gone into my surgeries with complete trust in these people, putting my life in their hands. Lay-people have said to me all along…

Friday surgery retraction statement

You know… I probably jinxed it by telling you all it was happening… But I got a call earlier in the week saying they ‘couldn’t find a consultant’ for Friday. I don’t really understand what that means, I thought it was meant to be my surgeon, Mr K who did it. But I guess maybe…

The joy of ongoing appointments

I was talking to someone the other day who was saying that going back to the Macmillan Cancer Centre for appointments is something she fears and finds upsetting. And I get it, there can be a certain sense of PTSD with these things, and constant reminders of the trauma isn’t necessarily what you want. But…

What the experts say…

There’s a lot of terminology used when it comes to cancer and I think a lot of us are left to piece together the jargon with the help of Google in order to try and make sense of our condition…

MRI and all that

I suppose I should let you all know that I got a call saying there is nothing ominous in my MRI! Yay! To be honest, I had forgot about it, people kept asking me if I had heard and it took me a while to think what I was waiting to hear about. ‘you must…

Another MRI survived and the impending referral for…

So I was filling out my MRI form last Friday and one of the questions was: ‘Have you had any operations on any part of your body in the last 3 months?’ I went to say yes… Of course I have… remember that big thing that happened in March? But… wait… No! No i haven’t! In…

Happy 70th birthday NHS

It is the 70th birthday of the NHS. Where to start? I suppose with something that’s obviously close to me. Looking at cancer alone – 50% of people get cancer. That means you, and your mum. Or your partner and your dad. Or your sister and your best friend. I know of people in the…