I’ve been having appointments every week or two, working on my final set of teeth. Between going to see my implants team and going to see the people at the lab and tweaking and fine tuning, we’ve been getting close to the final set. Colour matching was a fun exercise, think Pantone colour wheel but…
Author: Jen Eve
I've had cancer, twice. But I am more than that. I'm a writer, musician, and an optimist.
I FOUND MY BLOOD TAKING SOULMATE (now, if only I knew his name…)
On the first morning of my stay, I overheard the nurses talking about me when doing the handover. ‘She didn’t complain about pain last night but she did this morning’ Well I just said ‘could I have a paracetamol please’ but ok… And the reason I didn’t ‘complain’ last night because I was naughty and…
The longest night
By day the ward is a living, jovial, caring, nurturing, happy space. By night it turns into an unforgiving beast. By day the nurses are your compatriots, your friends. They sort things out for you, they bring pain relief, they bring smiles, laughs. By night they feel like overlords, snatching you unceremoniously from precious sleep…
Being back in hospital…
When I was at home over the last few days before coming in, with this ever swelling face, I was stressed about how I ‘should’ be, or the things I ‘should’ be doing. I’ve got an event to get to but I’m not feeling well enough. Am I going to be well enough to go…
And you may find yourself… back in hospital. And you may ask yourself, well… How did I get here?
So… I spent yesterday in A&E which was fun. Didn’t think that was still part of my life but maybe it always will be… We’ll see. I’ve talked before about how they’ve severed my trigeminal nerve, which tells my right eye to stop crying. Well occasionally it gets a bit weepy too. Fun. But it…
Cancerversaries
Anniversaries. I’ve never been very good at them. Birthdays, yes. I love birthdays. But anniversaries of things, less-so (I don’t make a very good partner, for example). I just live too much in the now and don’t spend time dwelling on the past. Though I must say that every year I smile to myself when…
Katie Davidson, August 14 1984 – June 21, 2019
This Weltschmerz I referred to in the previous post likely also stems from a few other things I should fill you in on. One in particular… Probably something I haven’t quite processed yet, on June 21 Canada Katie died. Only what, 2 months after Lucy? Some of you who have been here for a while…
‘A feeling of melancholy and world-weariness’
Today I woke up all panicky. Do you ever have those days? When you have an oppressive feeling of overwhelm? I didn’t sleep much last night. Well I suppose that’s quite standard these days, but with the combination of having had a coffee at 2pm (is that a thing now? Does an afternoon coffee keep…
So where am I at right now?
When I was about 7, I went to a gymnastics day at my local sports hall. For some reason I put sunscreen on… perhaps it was the day before that I put it on? Perhaps I’m mixing my memories, but this feels right. That day I found out I was allergic to sunscreen. Banana Boat,…
The Cancer Chronicles 